Monday, December 04, 2006

New Dreams

About a year and a half ago, in a freak bowling accident, I tore my ACL. I didn't know it at the time, and some other news kind of overshadowed it. That was the night I found out I was pregnant.

I was on cloud 9. I couldn't wait to be a mom. Everything was going great--I felt great, my hair looked good, I wasn't gaining weight, and things seemed perfect. We watched the baby at the sonogram at 8 weeks, and 4 weeks later, eagerly told our friends about our wonderful news.

A few days later, we lost the baby.

Though my heart was broken, I focused on our new life in France, and got through the pain as best I could. I knew that it might be hard for me to get pregnant again, because my history wasn't exactly wrinkle-free.

I wasn't ready to start trying again until we were well-entrenched in the streets of Paris. We nervously tossed the remaining pills, and officially started along the path once again. We didn't know what to expect, but we were hopeful.

After a few months of no success, I missed my period. I got very excited, and soon bought a pregnancy test. And another. And another.

And they were all negative.

Month after month, I waited, and waited, for nothing. It was almost like I was 10 years old again--there was nothing happening. I went to the doctor, who told me, "Be patient. It will come. You are young. Don't worry!" Easy for her to say.

I had hormone testing. That came up normal. The doctor still couldn't explain it. She scheduled a sonogram.

The doctor who performed it, after complimenting me on my excellent french, went to read me the results. It seems I had cysts and tumors in my uterus. There were lots of follicles, but she wasn't sure they were "any good". After several frantic emails to a high-school friend of mine who's a doctor (and who has internist friends), she told me I likely had Poly-Cystic Ovarian Syndrome, and this is what explained my 4 and a half dry months. She said it was definitely possible to get pregnant and have a baby, but I was still worried and quite overwhelmed. We were just about to move back to the US, and it was too much to deal with just then, so we decided to put it on the mental back burner until we were moved in, had insurance, and could focus our time on trying to find out how we could become parents.

We arrived home, and as luck would have it, things started working again just a few days after we landed at O'Hare. With a new home to prepare, boxes to unpack, jobs to start and so much to do, we decided to not worry too much and just wait to see what would happen. We waited for our insurance to kick in, and scheduled appointments with a doctor to get the process started. Due to the beginning of the academic year and all the new students and staff entering the system, our first appointments weren't set until the end of October. We were disappointed, but we knew there wasn't much we could do.

Then, on Friday the 13th, I blew out my knee again. At the ER, the doctor wanted to do an x-ray.

"Is there a chance you could be pregnant?"

"Well, I suppose, but I don't think so. I don't feel pregnant."

"Are you late?"

"Yeah, but only 2 weeks, and last time it was 4 and a half months, so it's probably nothing."

"Been nauseous?"

"Maybe a little, nothing big."*


"Um, yeah?"

He handed me a cup, and pointed to the bathroom.

There is a reason it took 7 weeks to go from injury to surgery. They had to wait until the second trimester.

I will be at 14 weeks as of tomorrow. Well, I guess I should say we.

*Note: this has changed. A lot. Ugh!



At 7:56 PM, December 04, 2006, Anonymous Mandy said...

Congrats to you!

At 11:35 PM, December 04, 2006, Blogger Jane Ann said...

What a wonderful story. Your Christmas will be exceptional this year. Congratulations and take care.

At 3:23 AM, December 05, 2006, Blogger Samantha said...


At 4:59 AM, December 05, 2006, Blogger Doc said...


welcome to the (ever-expanding) club!

At 5:03 AM, December 05, 2006, Anonymous sfgirl said...

at a time when it seems that so many of my friends and loved ones are trying so desperately to bring a child into their lives, i wanted to tell you that i love, love, loved reading of your good fortune.


At 8:47 AM, December 05, 2006, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Congratulations to you and Dr. B! My Mother lost her first pregnancy and spoke of despairing of ever getting pregnant or giving birth afterwards. My 4 brothers and sister and I are 'proof positive' she needn't have worried.

At 9:00 AM, December 05, 2006, Anonymous heather said...


I know how hard it can be to go through a miscarriage, greive for the one you lost, and try to get pregnant again. I went through a miscarriage about a year and a half ago. Since then I have been to a fertility specialist, but that has not been successful. So, we wait, we hope, and we pray....

I am glad that you were able to conceive and have successfully carried this far! I hope to see pictures of your little one in a few months.

At 9:40 AM, December 05, 2006, Blogger Kat said...

Congrats! That is so very exciting!!!

At 10:09 AM, December 05, 2006, Anonymous Roxanne said...

Congrats again and I can't wait to be an Aunt! I think I'll be a good one :)

At 1:42 PM, December 05, 2006, Anonymous Anonymous said...


Athena Aurelius/San Diego

At 3:21 PM, December 05, 2006, Blogger The Bold Soul said...

What WONDERFUL news! That plus your dad coming through surgery so well, and you having yours done too (finally) means a very happy Christmas in your family. Congratulations, I couldn't be happier for you!

At 6:57 PM, December 05, 2006, Blogger buzzgirl said...

Oh. My. Gosh! You didn't happen to read my last post did you?

It's France. I'm now convinced of it!

Now I'm a little afraid to go back...

And, of course, congratulations!

At 5:57 AM, December 06, 2006, Blogger Clare said...

Huge congratulations. Pity he/she couldn't have been born in France, mais c'est la vie!

At 8:18 AM, December 06, 2006, Blogger PutYourFlareOn said...

I love this story! <3 I'm sooo happy for you and hubs and fuzz face!

At 4:24 PM, December 06, 2006, Blogger Gumbo Girl said...

Congratulations to you, and all the best to your father.

At 5:19 PM, December 06, 2006, Anonymous martina said...

Congratulations on Baby B! And also on the knee surgery recovery and glad your Dad is doing better too.

At 11:13 AM, December 07, 2006, Anonymous Aunt J said...

Congratulations on Baby again and best wishes for continued good luck. We're glad your operation and your Dad's went so well.

At 9:29 AM, December 08, 2006, Blogger afoos said...


At 5:06 PM, December 14, 2006, Blogger flav said...

Congratulations!! what a wonderful gift :)


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